I never know how to start these things and it is usually late at night (like now) so my mind is no the sharpest. But we will just roll with it.
This last weekend was pretty fun. I spent the weekend up at Sun peaks resort where my inlaws have a condo. We went up with my wife's fam including her brother. It was a really fun weekend overall and got to relax, eat good food, and also got to go downhill mountain biking. For sure the first time I have down anything like this. I rented a bike that was worth around $5000 and we headed up for the day. Really really fun, and I am now, really really sore! :-) My father in law, brother in law and I all went up. It was a bit harder then I exspeced and even the "easy" runs required some good balence and riding ability.
All and all it was a great day with only one bigger fall, lets just say I am really glad I was wearing a full face helmet!
Now it is back to work, should be ready to put down floor joist and plywood tomorrow. Houses are going up pretty fast and the heat of the summer is gone so that has made working condition nicer. Now we just wait for the snow :-)
So in order for me to actually log on, and start writting a blog there has to be somthing that I stand back or htink about and go.
Hey, I should write this down!
Sometimes excited, sometimes not. Tonight is a not. I was actually thinking about loneliness. It is an odd thing and I admittedly don't understand it that well. I think that growing up in a family that is pretty tight nit, and having a lot of friends around I did not have to deal with it to much as a kid. Even in highschool and the years after, I traveled alot but it was always on the way to see a friend or family member. There was somebody there, somebody to say hi to that understood not only your language, but also understood where and how you grow up. You had something in common with them, even if it is just by where you parents decided to raise there kids.
But this last year, I have had to deal with loneliness more then ever before. Now don't get me wrong, I have friends here, I have friends back at home. I have been blessed to not just have my family but now also my in laws completely support me and love me. And most of all, I live with somebody, ya I know crazy. She is my wife and she is amazing, and we know eachother well, and are and will continue this for a long time.
There are also people all around me, from working, to hanging out at night. Because of my and my wife's personalities, our house is the hang out house. It is not uncommon for somebody to be over for dinner or a movie or for a great session of grounders. (if you don't know what that is you are missing out. Email me) We are constantly surrounded by people and I think until this year I would not have thought you could be lonely in this situation. But I have learned that you can.
And I don't want this to become some sort of my life sucks kinda thing, because it truly does not. I think that I have just come to realize a little bit htat you can be lonely from there being nobody around, yes. But you can also be lonely in a crown of people, and furthermore. You can even be lonely in a group of friends at times. I think this happens more often when you move away from a place where you were pretty well established. When you move to a new place, people don't know you, not really. THey don't know how or where you grow up, they have not been through thing in your past that have made you the person you are today. And yes, they are with you now, and they are the ones actually helping define you now. But there is still that missing link that comes up everyonce in a while. And that is what I am feeling tonight, a little lonely. A little out of place and a little not sure of direction.
As I got up from bad to come and read a bit, I starting think that this was most likely the way that Christ felt when he was on the earth. He had his earthly family, but they did not understand where he came from. He had his work mates, but they did not understand where he came from. He had crowds, He had friends and even 12 men that he poured his heart into on a very deep and personal level. And yet, even they did not fully understand where he had come from, who he was, what he was all about. Christ had to feel lonely at points in his life.
I recently had a chance to teach at a bible camp and the topic that was given me was on prayer. I did my best to make it relevant, to show that Christ did it and explain why Jesus prayed. I fully believe what I talked about was true. But now I would ad another thought to it. I think that Jesus prayed at times because he felt lonely. I think that even though he had all these people around him, His disciples around him almost all the time. But in the mist of all this going on, I believe that Christ felt not understood, felt that nobody shared the same mindset, the same ideas as He did. I think that Christ pulled away to pray because he simply needed to talk to somebody that understood him. that knew Him from the start, that was with him throughout eternity.
Does that all make sense? I am still thinking about it but it makes sense to me. And lets be clear, I in no way want to compare what I have been through and the changes that I undertook in the last year to come close in anyway to the act of a God, becoming flesh. To the struggles and hurts that went along with Christ's act of selflessness is far beyond our understanding. And in the lack of understanding we have, makes my mind rest in peace as I get ready to sleep tonight. Yes, I am still lonely, and yes I will feel lonely from time to time in the future. But I serve a God that has also felt that, but on a deep, deep level. In ways that we could not stand, and would never want to.
And yet this same God, is my rock. Is my never changing point of direction. He is always there and knows me far better then I know myself. He not only knows where I grow up, but the hearts and lives of everybody that I have ever talked to or interacted with.
So as I go to sleep, I rest in that. In the never changing Love and person of Christ.
Christ in ALL.
Monday, September 3, 2012
Monday, August 20, 2012
Yes, it has been awhile
Hello again.
Yes, it has been awhile once again.
In my last blog I stated that I would be writing on here more, I lied. I have not been doing that but know that I truly do want to start more. And I do think that I will in the coming months.
As I start to write this I have a few thing on my mind. Foremost is the fact that I should probably be sleeping right now, but this has never been a thought that I have entertained for long :-) I also am thinking about the smell around me right now. It is a smoky smell, with a hint of vanilla and peach. As some of you know when I need to think or clear my mind I bring out my tobacco pipe and site on my deck and think. Sometimes for hours sometime for not long at all. Sometimes my thought wonder to myself and sometimes to others but mostly they tend to end on my relationships.
My relationship with God, my relationship with my wife, and my relationships with my friends.
These are all things that have been heavy on my heart lately.
First off, my relationship with God. Ever since I have married my bride (just over a year ago!) I have been pushed in this relationship in ways that I have not before. It truly is a interesting thing to life life so closely with another person. To not only effect them with how my relationship wtih God is going but also be effected by theirs. My main focus over the past few months have been attempting to understand the statement in Ephesions when commands the husband to love his wife as Christ has loved the church. Which is then closely followed by the statement, "this is a profound mystery"!! The more I have looked into it the more I completely agree with that statement. :-)
My relationship with Hannah is a mystery to me. Alot of the time I feel like I have no idea where or what I am doing. How to lead, how to protect, how to love, how to honor. This has been some of the hardest questions I have ever had to deal with. But I welcome the challenge and truly do feel blessed for the last year. I have had some of the hardest times in my life but also some of the best times. I have cried more this last year both out of pain and also out of joy. God is good, He has been there when I have walked away, he has been there when I have not been in the word. HE has been there when I am tempted to not treat my bride as I should. My reliance on my great Lord has been pushed this year more them any other year or time in my life.
So a few weeks ago Hannah and I celebrated our 1st year anniversary. This was a really good time of reflection and looking back at were hannah and I have come in the last year. It was also a time of looking back at friends I have had and have gained. Moving up to Canada was not easy. I changed, towns, I changed jobs, I changed friends, I even changed countries. Admittedly this has not been easy and at times been pretty hard. But as I was looking back over the year I can truly say that even though my entire "normal" has been different for the last year. I am fully and truly blessed by the people I have around me here, and the family and friends that still remain in WA. Not to mention the people all around the world.
So.
Random thoughts from me. Things I have been thinking about, things I have been working through.
Thanks for reading if you do and I will honestly try and do this more.
Christ in ALL.
Yes, it has been awhile once again.
In my last blog I stated that I would be writing on here more, I lied. I have not been doing that but know that I truly do want to start more. And I do think that I will in the coming months.
As I start to write this I have a few thing on my mind. Foremost is the fact that I should probably be sleeping right now, but this has never been a thought that I have entertained for long :-) I also am thinking about the smell around me right now. It is a smoky smell, with a hint of vanilla and peach. As some of you know when I need to think or clear my mind I bring out my tobacco pipe and site on my deck and think. Sometimes for hours sometime for not long at all. Sometimes my thought wonder to myself and sometimes to others but mostly they tend to end on my relationships.
My relationship with God, my relationship with my wife, and my relationships with my friends.
These are all things that have been heavy on my heart lately.
First off, my relationship with God. Ever since I have married my bride (just over a year ago!) I have been pushed in this relationship in ways that I have not before. It truly is a interesting thing to life life so closely with another person. To not only effect them with how my relationship wtih God is going but also be effected by theirs. My main focus over the past few months have been attempting to understand the statement in Ephesions when commands the husband to love his wife as Christ has loved the church. Which is then closely followed by the statement, "this is a profound mystery"!! The more I have looked into it the more I completely agree with that statement. :-)
My relationship with Hannah is a mystery to me. Alot of the time I feel like I have no idea where or what I am doing. How to lead, how to protect, how to love, how to honor. This has been some of the hardest questions I have ever had to deal with. But I welcome the challenge and truly do feel blessed for the last year. I have had some of the hardest times in my life but also some of the best times. I have cried more this last year both out of pain and also out of joy. God is good, He has been there when I have walked away, he has been there when I have not been in the word. HE has been there when I am tempted to not treat my bride as I should. My reliance on my great Lord has been pushed this year more them any other year or time in my life.
So a few weeks ago Hannah and I celebrated our 1st year anniversary. This was a really good time of reflection and looking back at were hannah and I have come in the last year. It was also a time of looking back at friends I have had and have gained. Moving up to Canada was not easy. I changed, towns, I changed jobs, I changed friends, I even changed countries. Admittedly this has not been easy and at times been pretty hard. But as I was looking back over the year I can truly say that even though my entire "normal" has been different for the last year. I am fully and truly blessed by the people I have around me here, and the family and friends that still remain in WA. Not to mention the people all around the world.
So.
Random thoughts from me. Things I have been thinking about, things I have been working through.
Thanks for reading if you do and I will honestly try and do this more.
Christ in ALL.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Long time, no blog.
So, to whoever is actually out there reading this, Hello again. I don't know who you are and really why you would be checking a blog that has not been updated since December 08. But I welcome you and thank you for reading.
Alot has changed since my last blog. The biggest thing is that I have gotten married and moved to a completely different country. No, not New Zealand, no not the Philippines. I have moved to the big country of Canada. And although alot has changed, something have stayed the same. I still work construction and am loving it. I am not working construction for my dad for the first time in my life, and truly do miss it. The work itself has not changed much but the relationship and talks during work have changed dramatically. And as the saying goes, the more I work here the more I realize how much I took working with an amazingly wise and Godly man for granted. So for the years of work behind and the possibility of work in the future, Thank you dad.
So we will see how often I actually update this thing. I feel like I need some kind of outlet so maybe this will be it.
So I have moved to Kamloops, BC, Canada. It is a good size town, not to big but also gives me a bit of a look at living in more of a city. Pretty much everything has been new for me in the last 6 months. I have gone through alot of learning, some good and some harder. Over all, God has been a rock, he does not change no matter what country you are in and that has been very true the last few months. One of the highlights of the time has been learning how to love, support my wife. She really is amazing and the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Living life together in such a close, day in day out, through the hard times and the good has been the hardest and most rewarding things I have ever done. God continues to humble and take care of me through it all.
To change directions now a bit.
Leadership has been somthing that I have been working through as of late. The meaning of it, how it is done and what that looks like in a practical way. I have been challenged daily as I learn to be the head of my family, and lead in a Godly and biblical way. This comes to task when a disicion has to be made. I think that this can be small things, even to the point of what we do with our evenings, what shows we watch on tv, what books I read and how I treat Hannah. It also is present in the big deals, as far as what bills to pay when, what car to buy, who we align our life with, what community of believers we work with and what ministries we put our time and energy into.
I have made mistakes and have done well, it is a learning curve that I am in the middle of. With everything in my life being new, it is just another thing that I have yet to become proficient in. But I am coming to the conclusion that this issue is a bit more important then other things. Like in other areas, I have a choice of how to respond. Since moving, I have had to make the choice to pay more for dairy, either I pay more, or I don't get it. I have the choice to pay a ridicules amount of money to ICBC to insure my cars, if I pay, I can drive, if I don't pay, I walk. both of these I could live with the other option, I would not like it, but it could be done.
With Leadership, I also have a choice, I could put in the time, and learn how to do it well, or I could not. But unlike the other two examples, I don't know if I could live with out paying the extra, without doing what needs to be done. Without being a man, which is what this all comes down to. When I stood before a few hundred of my closest friends and made a vow before them and before God to value Hannah above myself, that was my choice, my final answer. I don't have the option now to not follow through, there is way to much at stake. My leadership directly effects Hannah and my relationship with eachother, and also our relationship with our God.
And again, I have done this well at times, and at others times there is room for improvement. And I am working on that, I have been reading books on the matter, I have been listening online to respected and Godly men as they share there thoughts on the subject. It is again a time of learning for me in this area, and also a time of joy. When I step into the leadership role that I am made for, that I am ment to be in and have to be in, then I come a little closer to understanding Gods love for His church. And in that there is try joy, that is what we are meant for and how we are supposed to live. In the Joy and hope of our Saivour King.
Until next time.
Christ in ALL .
Alot has changed since my last blog. The biggest thing is that I have gotten married and moved to a completely different country. No, not New Zealand, no not the Philippines. I have moved to the big country of Canada. And although alot has changed, something have stayed the same. I still work construction and am loving it. I am not working construction for my dad for the first time in my life, and truly do miss it. The work itself has not changed much but the relationship and talks during work have changed dramatically. And as the saying goes, the more I work here the more I realize how much I took working with an amazingly wise and Godly man for granted. So for the years of work behind and the possibility of work in the future, Thank you dad.
So we will see how often I actually update this thing. I feel like I need some kind of outlet so maybe this will be it.
So I have moved to Kamloops, BC, Canada. It is a good size town, not to big but also gives me a bit of a look at living in more of a city. Pretty much everything has been new for me in the last 6 months. I have gone through alot of learning, some good and some harder. Over all, God has been a rock, he does not change no matter what country you are in and that has been very true the last few months. One of the highlights of the time has been learning how to love, support my wife. She really is amazing and the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Living life together in such a close, day in day out, through the hard times and the good has been the hardest and most rewarding things I have ever done. God continues to humble and take care of me through it all.
To change directions now a bit.
Leadership has been somthing that I have been working through as of late. The meaning of it, how it is done and what that looks like in a practical way. I have been challenged daily as I learn to be the head of my family, and lead in a Godly and biblical way. This comes to task when a disicion has to be made. I think that this can be small things, even to the point of what we do with our evenings, what shows we watch on tv, what books I read and how I treat Hannah. It also is present in the big deals, as far as what bills to pay when, what car to buy, who we align our life with, what community of believers we work with and what ministries we put our time and energy into.
I have made mistakes and have done well, it is a learning curve that I am in the middle of. With everything in my life being new, it is just another thing that I have yet to become proficient in. But I am coming to the conclusion that this issue is a bit more important then other things. Like in other areas, I have a choice of how to respond. Since moving, I have had to make the choice to pay more for dairy, either I pay more, or I don't get it. I have the choice to pay a ridicules amount of money to ICBC to insure my cars, if I pay, I can drive, if I don't pay, I walk. both of these I could live with the other option, I would not like it, but it could be done.
With Leadership, I also have a choice, I could put in the time, and learn how to do it well, or I could not. But unlike the other two examples, I don't know if I could live with out paying the extra, without doing what needs to be done. Without being a man, which is what this all comes down to. When I stood before a few hundred of my closest friends and made a vow before them and before God to value Hannah above myself, that was my choice, my final answer. I don't have the option now to not follow through, there is way to much at stake. My leadership directly effects Hannah and my relationship with eachother, and also our relationship with our God.
And again, I have done this well at times, and at others times there is room for improvement. And I am working on that, I have been reading books on the matter, I have been listening online to respected and Godly men as they share there thoughts on the subject. It is again a time of learning for me in this area, and also a time of joy. When I step into the leadership role that I am made for, that I am ment to be in and have to be in, then I come a little closer to understanding Gods love for His church. And in that there is try joy, that is what we are meant for and how we are supposed to live. In the Joy and hope of our Saivour King.
Until next time.
Christ in ALL .
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
The last 3 weeks of my life
I am now sitting in the busy city of Manila trying to figure out how to explan to you the last 3 weeks of my life. I don't really know how this is going to end up looking but will try not to bore you to much. So if you don't know, I took a 3 week trip down to New Zealand to surprise the returning students that I know at Capernwray. I did not really think I would be able to take this trip and didn't actually buy my tickets for it until a few weeks before I left home. As the time came near for me to leave I was getting excited but it was hard to leave the Philippines, well, more to leave Jess and her family. I had been in the Philippines for just over 4 weeks and it had become normal life and would be weird not to see jess everyday.
My flights went well and had some good talks with the people next to me. During the long flight from Manila to Sydney (about 8 hr) everybody was sleeping and I had been trying to for a while but just could not shut down. Then I looked to the left, and since I was in the middle isle, looked past 4 sleeping faces and as I was looking out side I witnessed a lighting storm from above the clouds. This did not just happen once, it was off and on for about 2 hours, it was really cool and for some reason really calmed my spirit. I spent my first few day's up in Auckland helping and hanging out with Forrest. It was pretty funny because during this time I actually talked to two of the girls at the school that I was going to surprise and they had no idea I was in NZ.
Forrest and I jumped on his CBR 900 RR fireblade (amazing bike!) and on a crisp Saturday morning, headed down to Cambridge. We took turns driving and I think I spend most of the way because I was so excited. Some of the people that I would be seeing I had not seen in almost a year and was really excited. So after the hour and a half ride down Forrest droped me off at a back door and from there we really didn't have a plan of how I was going to surprise people. Forrest went to the front and said I to people and acted like I was not there. It ended up working out very well and it was a really good surprise for people. One of the girls that I wanted to surprise was actually not at school when I came and she didn't get home until later that night. Right before she got back to school we move Forrest bike around to the back of school and after she pulled up I drove up pretending to be Forrest. Then as she was walking up to say hi I took off my helmet. It worked well and over all surprised a lot of people
I stayed at the school for about a week and a half. Since I am a poor traveling bum I ended up working in the mornings and because of this I was able to eat for free. I was staying at a staff members flat so I just paid a little rent for the time I was there. Over all the staff of the school really helped out and it was huge blessing for me. After work in the morning most my time was just spent hanging out. Not really doing anything amazing or traveling a whole lot but that was not the reason for my trip. I have so many stories that I could tell you of crazy and fun and amazing times I had. From sneaking out and going to a sheep graveyard, to rupturing a tendant in my figure playing rugby in the pouring rain. From staying awake for over 30 hours to straight to almost falling asleep in the top of a tree. I honestly could go on for hours upon hours of stories but this is getting long already.
As soon as I steped of the plan in New Zealand, I was hit with a fact that I had thought about before but this time really hit deep. I flippin love New Zealand. It is in my opinion the most beautiful country there is and the people and just the atmostpher is something that I have not felt or seen anywhere else in the world. I took some rides on Forrest bike and seeing the rolling green hills and other natural beauty I have no doubt that if I don't end up living there, I will for sure be back for visits.
And speaking of living there, as I was spending time with Forrest in a town called Papakura, he started talking about a plan that his boss and him are working on. Papakura is more of a lower end part of the Auckland and has a high population of youth. And at any given day after school, there will be 30 plus kids hanging out at the local skateboard park. So in light of this Forrest and his boss are looking for either a large building to rent or but, or a plot of land that they could build a large building. In the building they would start a skate park so that on rainy day's the youth would have a place to go. Along with the skate park there would be a rock climbing wall and turn it into a kind of place that kids and the youth of the area could come and hang out. Forrest skates a little bit but as we were talking agreed that he would need to get somebody who know how to skate and know the cultur a little bit. And since I know how to skate and know to a point, how to fit in the skate scene we started talking about me coming back down and either helping or running a skate church. This all depends on if they can get a building and even at that not sure if I would head down. But still, something for me to think about and something that could posibly happen.
Even with the posibility of someday coming back to the county, it still did not make it any easier to leave. The 3 weeks went by incredible fast and I felt myself wishing for more. The last few day's I spent with Forrest in Papakura and some friends from school came up to hang out. We went to the beach and just spent a lot of time talking and hanging out. These 3 people that I spent the last few day's in NZ with mean a lot to me. Two of them I will be be able to see at home with in the next 7 months but I have no idea how long it will be until I see Forrest again.
As we had been talking though out my time there, one of the girls had said a statement that I didn't understand. Talking about past times in her life and the future of when she leaves NZ, she said that her heart hurt. I just had never thought about this before. I mean, yes, I have been sad before and all that, but what does it mean for your heart to hurt? I really don't think I know what it meant until I had to say goodbye to these 3 people, then I understood. It is not just something you say, it is actually a pain that is in your chest. Pain is something I can normaly get over pretty easy, but this was different. The more I thought about it the more it hurt, looking back in my life, I relize I have felt this before, but only a few times and were times in my life I will never forget.
So although it was probably the hardest time of saying goodbye, I was and am still so glad to be back in the Philippines, and most of all, to see Jess. And not only to see Jess but to think that in less then a week I will be in Vietnam hanging out with another amazing group of people. So honestly I am so stoked to be where I am at, it is hard sometimes but I am so glad that I have people all over the world that when I say goodbye to them, it actually hurts my heart. I hope this last bit does not sound to pansy but it is true.
So ya, sorry this was so long and I will add pics and stuff later, I can't get it to work right now so that will come soon. Since being back in the Philippines I have just relaxed at home. I will be doing a bit of stuff this weekend and hanging out with some people tomorrow while Jess is at school. So I am excited to be able to see friend I have made here and am getting stoked for taking off for Nam. Hope all is going well at home and just to let you know, it was 85 degrees when I flew in at 6pm at night. So I am hoping for snow for Christmas but not sure if it will happen :-)
Alright, I will talk to you guy's later.
Christ in ALL.
Will
My flights went well and had some good talks with the people next to me. During the long flight from Manila to Sydney (about 8 hr) everybody was sleeping and I had been trying to for a while but just could not shut down. Then I looked to the left, and since I was in the middle isle, looked past 4 sleeping faces and as I was looking out side I witnessed a lighting storm from above the clouds. This did not just happen once, it was off and on for about 2 hours, it was really cool and for some reason really calmed my spirit. I spent my first few day's up in Auckland helping and hanging out with Forrest. It was pretty funny because during this time I actually talked to two of the girls at the school that I was going to surprise and they had no idea I was in NZ.
Forrest and I jumped on his CBR 900 RR fireblade (amazing bike!) and on a crisp Saturday morning, headed down to Cambridge. We took turns driving and I think I spend most of the way because I was so excited. Some of the people that I would be seeing I had not seen in almost a year and was really excited. So after the hour and a half ride down Forrest droped me off at a back door and from there we really didn't have a plan of how I was going to surprise people. Forrest went to the front and said I to people and acted like I was not there. It ended up working out very well and it was a really good surprise for people. One of the girls that I wanted to surprise was actually not at school when I came and she didn't get home until later that night. Right before she got back to school we move Forrest bike around to the back of school and after she pulled up I drove up pretending to be Forrest. Then as she was walking up to say hi I took off my helmet. It worked well and over all surprised a lot of people
I stayed at the school for about a week and a half. Since I am a poor traveling bum I ended up working in the mornings and because of this I was able to eat for free. I was staying at a staff members flat so I just paid a little rent for the time I was there. Over all the staff of the school really helped out and it was huge blessing for me. After work in the morning most my time was just spent hanging out. Not really doing anything amazing or traveling a whole lot but that was not the reason for my trip. I have so many stories that I could tell you of crazy and fun and amazing times I had. From sneaking out and going to a sheep graveyard, to rupturing a tendant in my figure playing rugby in the pouring rain. From staying awake for over 30 hours to straight to almost falling asleep in the top of a tree. I honestly could go on for hours upon hours of stories but this is getting long already.
As soon as I steped of the plan in New Zealand, I was hit with a fact that I had thought about before but this time really hit deep. I flippin love New Zealand. It is in my opinion the most beautiful country there is and the people and just the atmostpher is something that I have not felt or seen anywhere else in the world. I took some rides on Forrest bike and seeing the rolling green hills and other natural beauty I have no doubt that if I don't end up living there, I will for sure be back for visits.
And speaking of living there, as I was spending time with Forrest in a town called Papakura, he started talking about a plan that his boss and him are working on. Papakura is more of a lower end part of the Auckland and has a high population of youth. And at any given day after school, there will be 30 plus kids hanging out at the local skateboard park. So in light of this Forrest and his boss are looking for either a large building to rent or but, or a plot of land that they could build a large building. In the building they would start a skate park so that on rainy day's the youth would have a place to go. Along with the skate park there would be a rock climbing wall and turn it into a kind of place that kids and the youth of the area could come and hang out. Forrest skates a little bit but as we were talking agreed that he would need to get somebody who know how to skate and know the cultur a little bit. And since I know how to skate and know to a point, how to fit in the skate scene we started talking about me coming back down and either helping or running a skate church. This all depends on if they can get a building and even at that not sure if I would head down. But still, something for me to think about and something that could posibly happen.
Even with the posibility of someday coming back to the county, it still did not make it any easier to leave. The 3 weeks went by incredible fast and I felt myself wishing for more. The last few day's I spent with Forrest in Papakura and some friends from school came up to hang out. We went to the beach and just spent a lot of time talking and hanging out. These 3 people that I spent the last few day's in NZ with mean a lot to me. Two of them I will be be able to see at home with in the next 7 months but I have no idea how long it will be until I see Forrest again.
As we had been talking though out my time there, one of the girls had said a statement that I didn't understand. Talking about past times in her life and the future of when she leaves NZ, she said that her heart hurt. I just had never thought about this before. I mean, yes, I have been sad before and all that, but what does it mean for your heart to hurt? I really don't think I know what it meant until I had to say goodbye to these 3 people, then I understood. It is not just something you say, it is actually a pain that is in your chest. Pain is something I can normaly get over pretty easy, but this was different. The more I thought about it the more it hurt, looking back in my life, I relize I have felt this before, but only a few times and were times in my life I will never forget.
So although it was probably the hardest time of saying goodbye, I was and am still so glad to be back in the Philippines, and most of all, to see Jess. And not only to see Jess but to think that in less then a week I will be in Vietnam hanging out with another amazing group of people. So honestly I am so stoked to be where I am at, it is hard sometimes but I am so glad that I have people all over the world that when I say goodbye to them, it actually hurts my heart. I hope this last bit does not sound to pansy but it is true.
So ya, sorry this was so long and I will add pics and stuff later, I can't get it to work right now so that will come soon. Since being back in the Philippines I have just relaxed at home. I will be doing a bit of stuff this weekend and hanging out with some people tomorrow while Jess is at school. So I am excited to be able to see friend I have made here and am getting stoked for taking off for Nam. Hope all is going well at home and just to let you know, it was 85 degrees when I flew in at 6pm at night. So I am hoping for snow for Christmas but not sure if it will happen :-)
Alright, I will talk to you guy's later.
Christ in ALL.
Will
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Brazilian Bikini model and the love of photography
As Tita Alice and I were heading home from the 2nd mile campus (last blog) we started talking and I told her that I was interested in Photography. There had been a film crew at 2nd mile and I have followed them around and it was cool to see everything behind the scenes that went into the shoot. While Tita Alice and I where talking she said that since she used to work at
So we headed over mid morning to the studio, Tita Alice knew everybody there since she used to work with them for like 20 years so she introduced me to the photographer and he showed me his website and a bunch of pictures he had taken. He is one of the best Photographers in the 
But it was fun, it was really not dodgy in anyway and it was really cool to see everything that goes on behind a shoot. All the lighting and set up is crazy, the camera that he had was amazing and as soon as he took a picture it showed up on a computer screen in the corner. Really cool set up, and was a cool experience. It also mad me think about how much I like to take pictures and I have started thinking about maybe pursuing this when I get back home. Maybe take some classes and see where that leads. I for sure want to get a good DSLR when I get home and if nothing else just do it for fun on the side. It was a good day.
Then for a funny story, this evening the whole family is in the living room watching TV and I am on the computer checking email. I had asked jess for a CD so I could burn a program and she ended up dropping a piece of plastic on the floor. I am sitting cross legged on the swivel chair and as I leaned forward to pick it up for her, I find my self falling and sitting on the floor!! I had totally broke one of the legs of the chair!! Straight up snapped it off, right in front of the whole family!! It was pretty funny, they just kept asking if I was ok and I said that I was just embarrassed that I had just broke there chair!!! They said it was ok and they had had the chair for a while so it was about time for it to break. I think it was just built for Filipino’s not big white guys!
Anyway, that is it for now, still loving it and having an amazing time. So many good experiences.
I am, as I am typing downloading a program that should help me get my files back from my computer. So I hope that works and then I should get a copy of vista on Saturday, so hopefully it will be back up and running sometime soon. I still might lose some if not all of what I had on my computer but what can you do. Anyway, I should head to bed, be blessed and keep in the word.
Will
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Life happens, deal with it.
So I need to get going but just going to say that my computer crashed so I will not be updating this things that much for the next while. I will try to get it fixed but am not going to spend to much money on it.
But anyway, I just got back from a overnight trip to this place called 2nd mile. It is part of Action ministry and they get kids from the streets of Manila and give them classes in carpentry and a few other areas. On top of this they have Bible lectures. Pretty cool camp and I just hung out for a bit. It was nice to get out of the city and it was a lot greener and cooler. So besides my computer crashing it is going good, liking my new camera so will try to get some pics up soon. Ok, I need to get going, talk to you soon.
Christ in ALL
But anyway, I just got back from a overnight trip to this place called 2nd mile. It is part of Action ministry and they get kids from the streets of Manila and give them classes in carpentry and a few other areas. On top of this they have Bible lectures. Pretty cool camp and I just hung out for a bit. It was nice to get out of the city and it was a lot greener and cooler. So besides my computer crashing it is going good, liking my new camera so will try to get some pics up soon. Ok, I need to get going, talk to you soon.
Christ in ALL
Saturday, November 8, 2008
If you want.....
I just got a web album for my other pics. It is http://picasaweb.google.com/thewillanator
But if you don't want to check it out that is ok, but there are some pretty sweet pics so it is worth a look. Anyway, today was good, I got to play some Futsal (indoor soccer) at Jess' church so that was fun, I sweated like crazy with the humidity but it was fun. The shoes I were borrowing broke half way through so I played the rest of the time barefoot. After that we just chilled around church and then went to the youth worship service. It was really good and there were heaps of people there so it was cool. I will be heading to church again tomorrow morning so I think I will get some sleep. And by the way, Happy early Birthday Mum!!! I will try to call tomorrow! Love you!!
Christ in ALL
But if you don't want to check it out that is ok, but there are some pretty sweet pics so it is worth a look. Anyway, today was good, I got to play some Futsal (indoor soccer) at Jess' church so that was fun, I sweated like crazy with the humidity but it was fun. The shoes I were borrowing broke half way through so I played the rest of the time barefoot. After that we just chilled around church and then went to the youth worship service. It was really good and there were heaps of people there so it was cool. I will be heading to church again tomorrow morning so I think I will get some sleep. And by the way, Happy early Birthday Mum!!! I will try to call tomorrow! Love you!!
Christ in ALL
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